Kenneth | Blog

Back to uni

Boring classes

Sleeping in class

Insurance company

Broken windows

Lynwood that fkn suburb

Fked up people around that suburb

Stolen goods

Claims

Sleep

Yawn

Thats about it 

Maybe I DO know what I am talking about now or do I? I am still just as confused but what can I do, but I've found out that I am more and more self centered as time goes by. Its all about ME ME ME and ME, so tell me bout ME or don't talk at all. Is that true? or does someoen wants to drag me out of this thinking?

I might be self centered, all about ME ME ME and ME but I think this is all because of one person. This is because of someone I really love and care and REALLY RELUCTANT to share, is that right? or is that wrong? some may think its right some may think its wrong but what I think is that… F*** off, dont disturb us and mind ur own things..

Now dont I just sound selfish? 

I dont know what happened lately, I really dont. I dont know what has changed but clearly too much, too much. Things are not the way they SHOULD be, I am not the person I was before, maybe its because of what has happened for the past god knows how many years, maybe its because of "that" which has increase in severity over the past 10 or so years.

I think that the way and the environment you are brought up in really shapes who you are, it shows other people what kinda person you are, it shows other people a glimpse of your past and perhaps future. Things that had happened must have changed me but what took so long? I was fine until now? I dont have an answer for that either.

I think I am getting more self centered by the day, I think I am trying to get more attention from people I really care which I think has caused some chaos and what not. I dont know what else to say anymore, I hate who I am at the moment but I know nothing can change it, as much as I dont want to hurt others anymore, I think some decision might be good in the long run.. or would it? I dont know.. It takes a lot of courage, it will take everything away from me, everything I ever wanted, I ever wished.

Again, I know that I can do my best to get it back one by one, so it really comes down to Path A or Path B? You might ask, what am I talking or referring to? Hrm, to be very honest, I dont know myself..

So, leave it?  Hrm….

I've came acrossed this video not long ago. To be honest, I don't know how on earth he does what he does but its VERY amazing! I am sure it will entertain you for a while Check it out for yourself! and if anyone out there that can do what he does TELL ME!

First of All I would like to wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day in advance. Must say thou, as much as valentine's day has its meaning behind it, I personally find it being another "thing" that businesses take advantage of. Bunch of roses would usually cost you 20 bucks but on valentine's day its a totally different story, it can be anywhere up to 50 dollars (2 - 3 times the usual price). But nonethe less its all about supply and demand so I will stop complaning and get on with it.

Like I said, I never really believed in Valentine's Day but when you have a girlfriend, you are forced to believe in it and make a biggish deal out of it. I know I wont be doing much tomorrow, neither am I going to spend big bucks so I wouls like to dedicate this post to someone REALLY special, someone that has always been there for me whenever I needed company.

So you've guessed, the special someone is my lovely girlfriend Ireeeene I've known Irene for almost two years now, although two years seems really short but in this two years, so much, so much happened that it seems that 10 years has past. We got to know each other REALLY well (at least I think we do) which helped us through obstacles that popped up during the past 20 months. I am not good with words, to be honest I just ran out of things to said… BUT

Since words could never tell you ALL the things I'd like them to, I'll concentrate on saying something very simple..

I love you