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screw tht password protect the post.. its not working …. so yeh its now hmm passwordless

What is right? What is wrong? with me lately?

Did I just ask three different question in one sentence or does it just has like 3 question marks on it? Gah, you decide because I don't even know the right answer…

Sorry that I password protected the post (If you are reading this consider yourself lucky because my previous post, people cant seems to even read the entry eventhou they had the right password.

Lets get to the serious bit…

Everything seems to be going all weird lately, I don't know what to do. Seriously… But I think I do know the problem lying beneath… *drum rolls*.. PFFT scrape that.. *no drum rolls* I think.. I think I am prioritising the wrong thing and the wrong people.

I am sorry to be doing that to you (you know who you are). I did not mean to do it but it simply is hmm.. the thing I enjoy doing. I suppose that doesn't mean I can ditch everything and do it because I can see that you weren't happy at all but hey :S Everyone enjoy doing something different and its just natural. 

Alright I do apologize for err driving off with Raymond and people just randomly. I admit that was my mistake but we did have a rather good reason for it.. Well, we went to get chocolate lets just say..

Thats all I am going to say about that other then this I will talk to you about it…

Lets goto the NOT SO serious bit…not..

Hmm, I think I really need to fix up everything thats happening lately. Everything in my life is so messy at the moment. 1st.. my ROOM! lol, lets not go there.. then there is my family. Dont worry its not like hmm anything is happening but just that I need to spend more time with them thats all. Relationship.. I think we've been through this but it can be more then what you think, there may be more to the story? haha I dont know.. just maybe..

Then there is the whole friendship bit.. WE'VE SOOO talked about this so I am not going to repeat this..

Lets goto the casual bits..

This is the bit where everyone should read not just hiding here for people that has the password but heck, I cant be bothered, if you dont have the password (not that anyone that is reading this wouldnt). I wanna thank every single one of you for being there all these time.. Thanks so much for being there with me when I needed company or someone to talk to

Thanks so much..

Kenneth 

Its Australia Day tomorrow, for the Aussies they would be down @ the foreshore getting drunk or smashed but for me I see it as another usual day but maybe just feel the difference because everyone on the street would be wearing YELLOW and GREEN. Maybe I should too just for the sake of it.

Its going to be HOT tomorrow like HOT HOT. We are talking about 39 - 40'c (that ain't cool man…) Literally AIN'T COOL….  What can I do, its the weather and I think I would have to fight it by staying indoor or somewhere with air conditioning!

I don't particularly like the crowd so lets hope where ever I go tomorrow is going to be quiet!

Lets see…..

What am I suppose to say again. Errrr  I seriously can't remember now. Maybe its a good thing because I think what I wanted to say wasn't that pleasant after all. Forgetting it is good and lets hope it stays away from me smile?

I should try harder to make things work, I shouldn't be giving up, I should put more time into things that I am involved with.

I know we've been through this but I REALLY DO HAVE TO DO IT! 

I've decided to talk about what happened over the past few weeks. Well sort of a summary of everything that happened. Again, to be honest I cant exactly remember much of anything…

All I remember is that I've been working heaps, let it be NewsAgency or Myers City/Garbo. Kinda happy because I am working towards my target which I set to achieve by end of the year. I hope Irene don't chuck a sad at me for saying this here before I tell her because I just thought of this before I went to bed yest.

I was planning to goto UK

Alright this is just way off budget okay! AUD 1500 just to fly there and everything there is like 2.5 times more expensive (except for books :S lol)

Then I decided that I might pay Melbourne a visit just for the sake that everyone else is there.. like literally MELB is the new KL

I checked flight centre for flight prices and stuff thou its not very accurate but the cheapest flight there and back would set me back a good AUD 450 which isnt that bad considering its so far away. BUT

Not so fast.. Maybe Malaysia would be a more feasible option?

Well you see, with the new TIGER AIRWAYS (sigh and yay?) I can now fly to Singapore for roughly AUD 500 (peak season that is) then all I need to do is take a bloddy bus or something back to KL which isn't that bad ok!

So you see what kind of position I am in now? I know UK is out of the equation unless I win lotto, Melbourne would be nice to go but then I don't see the point of it for now. You must be thinking, right looks like Ken is going back to Malaysia but hold your fireee…

Mum said we would be going back @ the end of the year and I am still not sure if I am paying for the air tix or she is but that does not matter for now. This trip I am planning atm is for my mid semester break which runs for 5 to 6 weeks.

Thinking of going back that time to catch all the people that would be leaving for o/seas (US bla bla bla) soon enough.

I dont know what to do,  looks like this changed from a summary of my weeks to something rather different. Nonetheless, you get my point!

Remember how I talked about Lotto Dream not long ago?

I think I finally have Lotto Dreams of my own. These dreams are sort of similar to everyone else. My dreams consists of… Actually I wont tell you about it. Well… It basically consists of things that I wish for, things I would do for the ones I care, things I would do so I can cast a smile on one's face, or maybe things things that would save lives.

Which is more important? I think I have that in my mind now. Its in there and I told myself that I would pursuit my little lotto dream if I win it. It will definitely cast a big big smile on someone I care.

What Is That DREAM Ken? You might ask…

But you know what? I am not going to tell anyone because that way It will remain a secret and I think it would be better Say Im superstitious say I am crazy! Up to you but NO I am not telling

Well, there we go.. I tried my luck today. Those numbers were actually QUITE good but NOT QUITE good if you see it from a I-WANT-TO-WIN perspective.

They did STRIKE 3 out of 7 of the winning numbers. Not quite enough to achieve my DREAM but its getting there!

Want to take a guess what my "Lotto Dream" is? 

Signing out..

Kenneth

I've been asking myself…

Do I actually know what others are thinking? Do I really know what they want and what they really need? Do I actually know if they are feeling the way I think they are?

This is just too hard….