The paragraph just keeps going…
Friday, May 26th, 2006Its the time and day of the month (no.. im not a girl so not that..) 27th… so plain yet so.. meaningful.. What more can i said.. i prob repeat what i’ve said last time but nonetheless it might just show how much things changed or stayed the same as before.
I cant help but keep thinkin of things that happened, what could’ve happened, what should’ve happened, what can i do, what we could’ve done, mayb its the right decision, mayb it was for our own good, mayb its just how its suppose to be.. Whatever, i couldnt care less now can I? brain is just filled with questions that i have no answer to..
Dont get me wrong thou, im not complaning, im not trying to mess things up once again like i did before. Just that I’ve made a decision.. or promise if u like that i hv no idea if i could keep. Its simple yet hard.. Two words.. Giving up.. I’ve told myself to give up, i cant do it anymore, thinkin that things might work out soon - but then lookin at the endless horizon without land, without anything that i can trust.. I’ve lost faith in everything..
Everytime i look back, tears just rush through my poor lil eyes.. Memories tends to pop up when you least expected.. Wrong time, wrong place.. too late..
Giving up.. its not something easy to do, let alone achieving it.. Time is all i need (@ least i hope)
I love you.. I miss you…
(thts what should hv appeared on last night’s entry - but im sure u’ll would hv figured out…)
WELL! Guess problems and issue with life never stop does it?
Hmm, i dont think i would put any name here.. So yeh.. you will know who you are..
I am sorry that i’ve caused u all these problems all these time, i knew i should hv kept a further distance with ya, i thot i would try to tok to u as a fwen or bro if u like but i guess it gave a sorta wrong impression in a way. Im really sorry for wht’ve happened.. I respect ur final decision, do whatever you need to make things better, all i wanna see is a happier you
Take care and good luck with the rest of ur exam. hmm 3 left fer ya! u can do it!!!
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Enough of that for today.. lets tok a little about “today!”
@ lin for a start.. - looks like you should go boom america now.. kat didnt win.. taylor did :S
(hope ur reading this now
if ur neighbour’s internet would let u haha)
and.. freaky thing today is i saw this huge plastic bag on the train today.. well u might think “wtf with ken.. its just a plastic bag…” prob is its left unattended after everyone left, so i reported it to the transit guard.. andddd it end up being an empty plastic bag!!!
Oh well, at least i did the right thing - “If you see sometihng, say something”. No one will blame you for doign the right thing eventhough it might be a false alarm! Because you never know one day it might be real!
Im not working from today onwards until exam finish! so yeh.. lots of study to be done, lots of revision to do and lots of assignments to finish!
Thats all for today, take care and hv a nice weekend
Kenneth